When somebody says ur perfect, ur first reaction is a chill throughout u but it's more like a 3rd degree burn piercing ur body, every cell. You feel u need to fix it and it burns until the day u die or until u do...It's like a festering wound that stings, ur world racing around u when suddenly the word is spoken and it's still...The agonization of the pain it causes because it's not on purpose and u cant banish perfection. You want to disappear and have others feel this because u hate it so much. Everybody sees it but you, you can't see anything but whats in front of ur face. You have a great life, but u dont notice, the pain rips it outta u, it'll never stop, but u learn to tune it out.........eventually

Current Mood: cold

Rhapsody is this addictive game that swept the nation in about 1999......HERE'S ME AND KATRYNA AND MY SISTER!!


<ME, aren't I adorable, I'm 1 foot high and weightless : )
<KATRYNA, ain't she the prettiest girl ya'll ever did c? And they say she's chubby! YEA RIGHT!
<MARCIA, she is the snooby rich one who gets what she wants when she wants it........how life like.....

Current Mood: bouncy

KARIN IN THE HIZOUSE!!!
Only 2 more dance classes then REHEARSALS! My performance is on June 9th at the Raue Center and I am going 3RD!! then 7TH!! Really close to the beginning of the show. It's almost sold out too : )

Open house will suck tonight but ya know.......we gotta deal with it.....Alex, it's ur turn to hide from my parents, we missed that important detail then u gotta hide from my mom if she comes on the band tour as a chaperone. 

KATRYNA:

YOU left me, sweet, two legacies,—
A legacy of love
A Heavenly Father would content,
Had He the offer of;
You left me boundaries of pain	5
Capacious as the sea,
Between eternity and time,
Your consciousness and me.

(for you)

Becky and Paige- remember when we watcht he hills and play games? u never let me stop remembering....

Note to Those Who Read all of this: commenting is fine with me

Sometimes people ask too much of other people.
Ya know where there are like a lot of groups of friends and ya feel like u can only hang out with 1? well i feel like that. I dearly love Katryna to the bottom of my heart and alex as well no matter how juvenile he can be. Paige and becky on the other hand are also there. It's weird like that. Offense should be taken if I offend you, I'm SORRRRRRRRYYYYYY, so sorry....

Toast is my lucky breakfast food
Lacy red something is my lucky love charm(hehe)

Current Mood: tired

I feel so much better execpt here are my expectations (wishes more like it) but they don't really matter 4 one day you'll show ME that u care and I will love u 4 who u r:
-compassionate
-listens
-TALKS
-helps (when asks to help)
-someone i can talk to for like, hours, and they just undersatnd 
-someone who would wake me up at midnight to look at the stars and the moon endlessly
-someone who would just forever make me happy.....

KATRYNA- aaaaaa!! we'll be alone, chasing something we can never have (complete happiness) like Briar Rose pulling off that hairdoo lmao

everyone elsee: Snap ur fingers and clap ur hands, turn around its the marchin band, hop to the right and do a little dance, oh well, even tho u said u wouldnt listen, u just did.(i kno u dont get it, I DO!!HEHEHE)
NOTE TO SELF: never walk sideways up the steep steps on the playground of Saint Peter and Paul, if u do, be prepared to get ur ass wet

Current Mood: busy

You may not understand, and I wish you would, but I am forever tired of life and it's tragic moments, if I take it out on the world, it means I'm normal, if I don't , watch out, for I might blow my top..

Today was well Mothers Day and I drew this picture of 2 owls, a Mama and a baby, and then I quoted from the song "My Immortal' (fave just about) and she absolutely loved it. I also rearranged my room and have more space (to do comtortionist tricks no doubt).

Katryna, be safe. Be happy. Be free. Don't kill urself on ur bike.

Nicole and everyone else, don't think that if I talk I am happy, read the top paragraph, it isn;t directed to only 1 person

EMILY DICKINSON POEMS: 

THAT I did always love,
I bring thee proof:
That till I loved
I did not love enough.
That I shall love alway,
I offer thee
That love is life,
And life hath immortality.
This, dost thou doubt, sweet?
Then have I
Nothing to show
But Calvary. ______________________ WHAT if I say I shall not wait? What if I burst the fleshly gate And pass, escaped, to thee? What if I file this mortal off, See where it hurt me,—that ’s enough,—         And wade in liberty?    They cannot take us any more,— Dungeons may call, and guns implore; Unmeaning now, to me, As laughter was an hour ago,         Or laces, or a travelling show, Or who died yesterday!

Current Mood: emotionless

As a warning to all jerks in the world, when you say something to me, you better n it. You know who you are. I'm not sure why the word LOVE is in the enlish dictionary. It hurts too much.

Current Mood: pissed off

I will be gone Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thrusday to go to a funeral and wake in Minnesota for my uncle. I will not be online or at school and NOT HOME. don't call or im or text or anything. WIsh me luck and PRAY for his safe passing..thank you.

Current Mood: blank

Well.....Alex, whatever you think, I don't know about it. No matter how much you weep I feel no pity. I fight to protect me. I fight to proctect my people (katryna, anna, amanda, sam, sammie, brooke, emily, ect.) I have no need to be nice, when people aren't nice to me in return. Before I go on, ask yourself this: Do I really love her? Could I live without her in my life forever? Because personally, if you thought I was going to break up with you, I was thinking about it. But now, i do not know what to think. Only that I have a family to protect. My birth family, and my FAMILY. If you think that I run when a bad word is said, you got me wrong. Here is something that might help you understand what I can't tell you, for then, you would never forgive me...:
When you see me, I'm crying
You ask why
I say, someone's dying
You ask who
And I say you
When someone you know sees you crying
He asks why
And you say, someone's dying
He asks who
And you say you.....
And he cries too.
No matter how much some things don't affect us, death will be around every cornerstone in your life, taking an aunt, and uncle, a sister, a brother, a mother, a father...you can't stop it. You always know it's there, and your okay with it. FOr without it, we would never be happy, there is an ending to every story, all I'm saying is, think if you could be mine. Katryna, everything will be alright in the end......Nicole, don't forget the boundaries, Nessa, stay away.period.

  brokenhearted : (

Current Mood: contemplative,crushed,&crappy

Katryna, don't die on me while I'm gone Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday.Nicole I could have forgiven you, except u brought Vannessa into it. I migth have been harsh but that's only because there was no reason to hate us and have Nessa call us everything she did. I was trying to be nice, I just 'popped', sry. Alex, it isn't about the side u take, its just that u dont get it. You have a perfect life and you don't know how it feels to lose control over EVERYTHING and be blamed for the discombobulation of the world. Welcome to the life of a girl. We get blamed for that everyday.

Current Mood: bitchy